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13 October 2006 @ 10:51 pm
Has it been a week already? Over a week. Wow, the days seem to go by so fast now. Be prepared for a long boring drabble. It seems like forever since last year, but it seems like no time at all as well. I keep remembering things from last year, mostly through the music I'm listening to. I have a playlist for last year and every one and everything that goes with it.

It's kind of making me sad, actually. I mean, I have good friends here, but they're totally not you guys. I miss the personalities everyday. Laughing during class. Playing boxes during math class. Oh, I used to love math. It's funny how much I actually did learn from math, after everything that went on. I guess it kind of makes me happy though, too. But I really do miss last year. None of my (two) friends are really funny. Like, at all. They're mostly just sad. And like saying how much they hate this year. There are some cool people in my class, I suppose, but I'm so loyal that I feel guilty whenever I leave my friends for some one else.

Back to the fast forward time thing. It's not the same feeling as I had before. Now I'm kind of just drifting through the classes at school. And then the days is over, and then there's swimming (or not), and then I have to try to sleep and then it's school again. weekends always put me off-schedule so I spend all my time on the computer.Hey, I need to make myself happier. Aren't you glad to know I feel better when I'm talking to you and listening to music? Hah.

As for Lost. I'm still obsessed with it, and will be untill it's over, and probably beyond that. But I don't really feel like talking about it that much. Not even here. Maybe it's because no one at my school is really into Lost like we were. Me and Audrey converted every one to Lost. And we were all friends, and you guys still are, but here it's too big for that. Hmm.

Ahh, I'm too tired to write anymore, I think my fingers are going to break if I keep pushing the keys, I've been at it for hours. But i feel better when I get it out. And for some reason I always feel happy at school, even though I'm really tired and pensive and deep at home. Maybe school sucks some maturity out of me.

P.S. Happy Friday the thirteenth! ;D
how: contemplative
what: Death of a Martian - Red Hot Chili Peppers
03 October 2006 @ 08:14 pm
IknowIknowIknowIknowIknow. Iknow. It's been, like, forever since I posted anything. That's because swimming doesn't let me have a social life. And I'm lazy. And keep forgetting. So I'm going to try to make it every week or so. Starting next week. Every Thurday or so. ANYWAYS...

The concert. I know. I told most people, but I still felt like ranting about it. Not just because they're my favorite band, or because I got to miss school, or because I got good seats, but because it was just that good. But the other things are fun to brag about too. ;D When a band can go two hours with non-stop cheering, and then end off their show with a ten-minute jam* that actually sounds amazing , you know they're better than you thought. And I thought they were pretty damn good to start with.

About swimming. Hm, what can I say? It's relatively easy. Okay, very easy. The swimming part. Most of it, anyway. Dry-land = not so fun. And at least there I've made a few friends. They're nice enough people. But what I'm really liking is the schedule. Check it out :

Tuesday : 6:30 - 8:00 pm
Thursday : 6:30 - 8:00 pm
Friday : 8:00 - 9:30 pm
Saturday : 5:00 - 7:00 pm
Sunday : 12:00 - 2:00 pm

Do you now see why I love it so much? Not only is there no practise on Mondays or Wednesdays (Lost, more later) but there are no early morning practises. Not even on Saturday. Yeah. At first, I was like "Uhh, seriously?". But yeah. How rockin' is that?


School is... nnnot horrible. It's... I don't really know what to say. It's getting... awkward. Still that surreal feeling, but maybe a little less. I feel like when I go to school, it's a different place entirely than when I come home. Maybe it's my music. [sigh] Sometimes I wish you were here. You should get a livejournal. It's addictive, plus it's easier than what you have right now. I'd totally help you with the CSS, it sounds complicated but it's actually simple once you get the hang of it.

I ate lunch with a different group today, just to mix things up. Then my two other friends started acting really weird, almost ignoring me. I got scared for a while, but apparently everything's cool with them. Apparently. Between you and me, I was hoping they got a little shocked. I mean, the two of them are always talking to each other about how they hate the school and everything else that goes wrong. Jesus, lighten the fuck up. That's right, we go by the PG-13 rating around here. You better believe it. Anyways, yeah. Me&you need to talk more often.

And OMGZLOSTistomorrow. Eee.

* A jam is the result of jamming.
 -  To jam is the action of playing music without any prior organization and just going with what you feel at that moment; a rythmic flow of beats and sounds. Usually just from the instrumentals in a band, sometimes vocals are added in.
how: indescribable
what: Wet Sand - Red Hot Chili Peppers
16 September 2006 @ 10:46 pm
Alright, first thing's first. Anonymous poster who's name I won't mention : you need to e-mail me (because I wouldn't put all this over the internet) as soon as possible because I need to know your address, phone number, if you can drive me to Audrey's (or if she'll pick me up) because my mom wants to get rid of me untill Monday and go to her friend's cottage. The exact dates would be Friday the 22nd at around 5:00 pm or so, to like... whenever on Saturday the 23rd. I think 4:00 or 5:00 would be fair. But I need to know by Thursday. Thursday. THURSDAY. Okay, that's enough.

So... school. Ah, yes. Now I remember. This past week has been such a blur. Sometimes I feel like I'm not really all there, then sometimes I feel really happy and full of energy. For no reason whatsoever. It's weird.

I made a good friend. But she keeps feeling sad and depressed. Saying that everything in eighth grade sucks, that I'm her only good friend and that all the other girls she knows are backstabbers or stupid or both... she's even resorted to e-mailing the teacher telling him stuff, but I think that's a good idea because he's actually really cool. I try to cheer her up and stuff, but it's hard when every one else keeps coming up to us and saying the absolute worst things to say at that time (Are they blind? Or just stupid?). So we lie and say that we do like them. But it's all in good nature. Aside from that, we get along really well, and have the same laid-back personality type, except for my sense of humour. She hasn't exactly gotten used to the sarcasm yet, but it'll come. All in good time.

Every one seems to have a crush on a guy. I really don't get it. None of the guys I've seen are that good looking. And it's extremely unlikely for a guy to be attractive during this stage of puberty, anyways. So I just don't see what they're all talking about. I have to meet a guy and know him before I start to like him. Personally, it's all about personality. Impress me with your wit. Or good taste in music. That always helps. I just thought I'd say that.

Big news, I'm auditioning for the 2007 school musical. It's called The Pyjama Game. I don't know what it is either, but I'm trying anyways. Because, apparently I can sing. According to my drama class. Whom I sang in front of on Thursday for our Americal Idol game. I know. Oh my god, was I shaking. I thought I would die, right then and there. Then on Friday, to my surprise, I sang again! Anyways, I'd rather not talk about it right now because the auditions for the musical are on Monday and I'm getting nervous. I'l go on later.

But for now, I'm pretty much done. I think I might be starting to fit in, here. Only 9 days to go!

>>> ButohmygodLukas WON SUPERNOVA. I was soooooo happy. Even though he wears lip gloss. I mean, what are the odds that two Canadians win both Rockstars in a row, eh? <333
how: everything at once
what: Dog & Butterfly - Heart
06 September 2006 @ 05:28 pm
School is such a drag. So is making friends. I wish the friends were just there. Like, pre-packaged and ready to go. Just fill out the form and sign below. Mail-order friends. They should totally have that. Or at least something like that. Maybe they should arange the classes according to interests. Anyways,

So, I'm trying to block out school. And the fact that I have, what, two friends?.. kind of? I don't really know anymore. This school is crazy. And huge. Very overwhelming. I'm scared.

I suppose I'll adjust. Hopefully. Can't wait 'till the concert. 19 days!

how: distressed
what: Easy Love - MSTRKRFT
30 August 2006 @ 08:49 pm
Last post before school. Because I start tomorrow at 9:00 AM. I hope I don't get too lost. I do know what I'm wearing, though. I planned it out and everything, as most do. Hopefully all goes well.

Good news; the house is sold, so now all we're doing is house shopping. We just saw a really nice one about a half an hour ago, and we're probably going to take that one. It has a nice room with hard wood flooring and dark blue walls that I really like.

And Ryan's gone?! What? Nooo! How could Supernova do that?!
Actually, no. I totally understand. He's not the right type for them. It's pretty much down to Toby and Lukas (Go Canada!) now.

Anyways, I gotta get some sleep. Have to be well rested and energized if I want to socialize tomorrow.

how: nervous
what: Megalomaniac - Incubus
23 August 2006 @ 06:28 pm

Okay! Longer time no post. I don't really know what I've been doing lately. I'm not reading, or sewing, or watching that much TV, I've only been online to listen to the EDGE (102.1... online) and time just seems to go by. It's weird, 'cause it totally doesn't seem like anything, but then I look at the clock and it's like "Oh my god! It's 3:48 and I haven't had lunch yet!". Sometimes I have to remind myself when I'm hungry, but then I'll eat lots and lots. Actually, not during the summer, I eat alot only during swimming season.

ANYWAYS, back to my point. It seems that I just lock myself in my room all day here. I've never been like that before... but I guess it's because I've got music and my computer and a bed. And the days just roll by. And now I look at the calender and there's a week left untill school. A week! I don't know if I'll remember how to socialize.

Speaking of school, I have been accepted (or as close I can get to being accepted) into a school! Yay! Hooray! Three cheers for me! But it's a big school. I mean fifteenhundredstudents-threeviceprincipals-toomanyclassestocount big. Yeah. That's big. School starts the 31st for me, so I'm nervous. But that's nothing, at first they thought I would have to change schools in the middle of the year. I said, "If I have to change schools, I'm not going back to school. NEVER."

Speaking of dates, my next trip to Toronto is exactly one month from now. I had the date wrong before, but here's the schedule now :

       Saturday, 23rd of September :
- Drive to Toronto (5 - 6 hours)
- Sleep at a friends house (14 - 26 hours)

       Sunday, 24th
- Possibly go shopping with mother (2 - 4 hours), or stay at friends house (2 - 6 hours)
- Go home, sleep (12 - 16 hours)

       Monday, 25th
- Go shopping (if not yesterday) (2 - 6 hours), or go to Paramount Canada's Wonderland (4 - 8 hours)
- Go to Red Hot Chili Peppers concert (30 minutes - 2 hours)
- Watch Red Hot Chili Peppers concert (2 - 3 hours)
- Go home, sleep (12 - 16 hours)

       Tuesday, 26th
- Drive back to West Island (5 - 6 hours)

How organized, right? Speaking of Anthony (Kiedis (Front man (Red Hot Chili Peppers (Whoa (Look at all the brackets (I should stop now)))))), I tried to make another icon. Failed. Darn program won't download. I've got all the frames ready to go, just need to assemble them in a .gif with something. Maybe you'll see it later. It's inspired by the video "Love Rollercoaster", so go look it up on YouTube.

Random side note - I learned last week that Ben Kowalewicz, lead signer of Billy Talent, loves Lost so much he wants to "schedule their next tour around it". Well, of course he does... because he's behind it all! Or at least that would explain the smoke-monster part. Or not.

Funny fact - After I heard that on the radio, I shouted out : "We're soul mates!". I got some funny looks, but it's all good.

Well, that covers it I think. (Long post this time!)

how: artistic
what: The Pot - Tool
18 August 2006 @ 11:36 am
Okay, I know, long time no post. But I've been sewing and listening to music and swimming and sewing. Yes. Sewing. I'm not bad, actually. I've made a few wristbands and attempted a puppet. The mouth doesn't open right. Oh well.

Anyways, I still have no school... because we don't know where were living and people are stupid. Stupid people. They're stupid.

On a better note, I know what swimming group I'm in! Age Group Developpment C. I have no idea what it means either.

I'm officially starting the Countdown to the Concert because I don't have anything better to do. The Chili Peppers play Toronto the 25th and 26th of September... and I'm going to go back and be there! So I'm counting of the days untill the 26th. I get to miss school, because it's a Thursday I think. So YEAH. I got Californiacation and already had Stadium Arcadium so I'm all set.

The A in this icon should probably stand for Anthony instead, eh?

Not much else for now, I suppose

how: blah
what: Otherside - Red Hot Chili Peppers
12 August 2006 @ 03:42 pm

It's kind of exciting, really. But I'm also nervous because school starts August 28th. But that means back-to-school shopping! Hooray! I love that. I don't know why. I swear, I now have ten pairs of jeans alone. Now I need to go buy new shirts. ;D

The only problem I have right now is that we don't own our own house here yet, because we havn't sold the house in Ontario... So we're living in our grand-parent's basement. But I've got my stereo and a computer in my room, so I'm good.

Went swimming again today... I suck. I'm so out of shape. Really. I've got a try-out on Monday. I don't know what I'm gonna do. OH WELL.

how: peaceful
what: 1979 - Smashing Pumkins
10 August 2006 @ 09:10 am
Gah! Tomorrow is my last day in Ontario! I'm leaving Friday morning! Farewell, my friends! Okay, moment over.

On top of getting Billy Talent II (Chyeah.), I went on a huge music shopping spree today (online, that is) and am going through a MSTRKRFT, Death From Above 1979, She Wants Revenge, The Prodigy, Toole and Muse phase. And now, I realise, finally... I am a bad dancer. Oh, the horrible truth comes out! How it stings! How it pains me!

Rockstar : Supernove is getting intense, man. And I don't even know who was thrown off yesterday! Please be Jill. Or Patrice. Just not Lukas. We need Canada to stick in there. And not Storm, either. Or Ryan. And maybe Dilana. They desrve to stick around. Can you tell me who was eliminated yesterday? Any one? Please?

how: groggy
what: Falling Leaves - Billy Talent
07 August 2006 @ 02:43 pm
Okay, so I know, I've been putting this off for... ever. It's not really ready yet, but whatever.

If you click on the fanfiction link, you'll be directed to three parts of a Lost crackf!c (see how I wrote it? I'm unique) series. They're short, because they're written like a script. Which I thought was cool. Plus it's easier to write that way I said nothing.

So I gave you three. Oh the torture.

Be wary, it's un-betaed.

Are you ready?

No, you could never be.

No one can.

TRY to prepare for the most



dreadful experience

of your life.

Or not.

Go! Read!

It's this damn music. It's makin' me think loco.
how: creative
what: These Things - She Wants Revenge
06 August 2006 @ 08:54 pm
Okay, so I got the CSS done. Yay! The image is up... and a few other things are done as well. I like it. :D

I went to Barrie yesterday. Nothing much to report there.

That's about it, I suppose.

I need to go find something to read.

how: bored
what: No Heaven - DJ Champion
03 August 2006 @ 04:49 pm

Okaaaaay, so I'm almost done the layout. And stuff. Yeah...

So I was surfing through the channels on TV when I came across the Devil in a Midnight Mass video. Naturally, I stopped to listen, when I realised something...

So that concludes my explanation of all of Lost. Every question that is asked can be answered now. [ Billy Talent ] That is the answer. Yup.
If you have any questions, comments or theories; please contact me.

(P.S. I'm kidding, obviously. I ain't that stupid. I thought it was funny though. Just go along.)

how: hyper
what: Super Massive Black Hole - Muse
02 August 2006 @ 04:10 pm

Yesterday I went to Canada's Wonderland again and did a few more rides, but it was so hot we spent most of our time at the water parc. But it was still much fun.

Two days before that I finally went to see Niagara Falls. And man, did I feel like getting in a barrel. That would have been so cool. That's one of my dreams to fulfill before I die, to see some one go down it. I'm always off with my timing. I didn't do the Maid of the Mist. Actually, I think you can see it just fine from the side. Lots of mist. I guess that's where they got the name, eh? And you can totally see that the Canadian Falls

I think what we did was so much cooler anyways. I mean sight-seeing? Puh-lease! That's so last season. River rafting? Yes, ma'am! The rapids were of a force of five (on six). We gat soaked but it was so cool all the same and I was singing lock the door, lock the door... the whole way. In Repair was the last song I heard before we got on, so it was in my head.

And did you now that about 12,000 years ago, Niagara Falls was 7 miles downstream from where it is now? Until the early 1950s, the Falls eroded at around one metre per year. Since then, major water diversions, like generating stations and power plants, have spread out the flow more evenly, slowing the rate of erosion at the Falls. It still keeps backing up every year! See? Who says this isn't educational! We're laughing and learning. I think that's important to do every day.

We're learghing. :D

how: content
what: In Repair - Our Lady Peace
29 July 2006 @ 02:36 pm

I have a few icons now! Yay!

They're not wonderful, but I'm still proud. And look! See? Now there's red outlining the sign below... You can't really tell, but it took me forever nonetheless.

I like it.

And I'm going to be putting up a header soon enough, so yeah.

how: indifferent
what: From What I Once Was - Neverending White Lights
27 July 2006 @ 02:03 pm

Aha! I got it! My Neverending White Lights CD... FINALLY! I'm so in love with it. It's very deep. Awaiting Dan's next album with extreme impatience. But also, waiting on my mother to buy Billy Talent II, for Billy Talent has seemed to melt my brain recently with Red Flag and Surrender, so I'm looking forward to it. And I've been listening to alot of Our Lady Peace, as well. Raine looks so delightfully evil in the Superman's Dead video. It's awesome. I think I'm in love. So canadian. So hardcore. So rocker. Guh.

That just leaves Hot Hot Heat.

Also, strange people keep coming into my house to inspect it. I wonder what that's about. They could be her any minute now... and I have to actually clean. Gah!


how: nervous
what: Red Flag - Billy Talent